I've broken up!

I really don't care now if my boyfriend sees my blog... we broke up last week. I had quit smoking, i quess a couple months ago now, and all he could do was keep taunting me and not leaving me alone about it. I don't know what his problem was, but i had had enough.

I didn't really like drawing all that much, so really haven't conitnued that, but even with my "ex" boyfriend jealous of me quitting I still haven't smoked!

My mom is coming into town tommorrow so I'm so excited! Gotta clean clean clean!

Elisabeth

I quit for real this time!

Well, something is different this time. I've been messing around trying to quit, I was doing real good the first week or so, but the cigarettes kept just seemed to keep seducing me. And with no help from my "boyfriend" it just felt I wouldn't win.

I took a chance and bought an ebook the other day and all I can say is WOW. It's like it talked me out of smoking it's unreal. I think it might be subliminal or something because everytime I think of smoking I immediately don't want to. It's weird. So that's why I know it's for real this time! ebook is http://www.thequittingsystem.com buy it yesterday if you're a smoker and congrats if you're a nonsmoker. Like me now!

Elisabeth

More Templates

I wish they had more templates for the blogs. I like to change mine up but I can see that I'm going to quickly run out of them!

Maybe I Will Draw

Through that totallyquit site I came across the guy's site that does the artwork for some character that is being made for the site. Seems pretty interesting and I always liked art class in school. But I haven't drawn since I was a kid. But there's an art store right down the way from me. So maybe I'll run down there this week sometime pick up some art supplies and have some fun with it. Anything to help me not to smoke. The drawing site is at http://www.drawingwithdan.com and I put a link over there on the right.

I guess I kinda quit smoking...

I kinda quit. I guess. I've gone a few days with zero cigarettes, but then something happens and I have one. And guess who is RIGHT THERE to offer me one up? My boyfriend.

You know it's just like him. And I can see how much he relishes the fact that I can't totally quit. I mean I'm trying, I really am trying! But I can't get it out of my head that I want one from time to time. Yes I see all the stats and figures and gross pictures, but what is it about smoking! I think it's because those of us that still smoke somehow think it's still cool or something. I don't know.

I need to find a hobby though. Yeah. Maybe if I got a hobby, that would totally wipe cigarettes OUTTA MY HAIR!

Sugar Rush - Can't Sleep

It may be a surprise but can't sleep from all the sweet tarts. I'm just buzzing around nonstop. Do they make a sugarless sweet tart you think? I don't know but I need something other than sugar right now because I'm still just bouncing off the walls...

Computers Bother Me

Oh so fun. Me and my computer. House is done now I'm just bored. I defragged this thing and it still is slow. Brother told me to format? But save everything on a disk, not too sure about that I don't know where all my stuff is at and my boyfriend's crap is on here too. Why do they have to make them so complicated?

Why can't they make a computer that just works with everything and doesn't slow down? I mean if it's like my brother said where old programs you take off leave drivers and whatever else after it's gone on your computer, well why? Why can't when you take a program off it takes every thing else is put onto your computer? I think that makes sense. Anyway, I'm getting tired. I made it to Sunday without smoking! I don't think I'm going to be able to stay up, so I'm hitting the hay.

Good night,

Elisabeth

I like totallyquit.com

I found a great site finally! I didn't even know they had forums in the beginning but they do. http://www.totallyquit.com good place! The smoker calculator said I have spent almost $5,000 on cigarettes. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I COULD BUY FOR $5,000?!?!

A lot.

elisabeth

Quit Smoking Elisabeth!

So I just had a big urge. I sucked down 5 sweet tarts. All I need to do is stop smoking. No more nicotine! NO more we won't go! No more we won't go! I feel a little light headed actually. I suggest everyone to not pick up smoking because it's very hard to quit!

elisabeth

iVillageSucks?

I tried to use the iVillage messageboards because people seemed friendly. You know to get support? They must be having some issues because it took me 10 minutes of erroring out and backwards and forwards and I had to even reboot! So that's when I started this blog.

Blogs are like diaries right?

Well, I'm going to go try to find some support and I will come back and let you know what I find!

elisabeth

Unsupportive Boyfriends

So I've finally decided to quit smoking forever. I've never had a blog before but my boyfriend went out for the night and I'm pretty peeved. I've tried to quit smoking in the past, maybe 3 times or so but I've never made it a week. Everytime I go back to smoking. I don't know why. I've even tried patches and gums and everything you can imagine.

But I guess there was one thing I never tried: sweet tarts!

I have a whole bag of them with me at all times. Whenever I get the urge, I start chomping. I've not had a cigarette since last Sunday. If I make it to Monday then I've broken my record.

But my boyfriend just keeps telling me how I'm not going to make it as he puffs away. And he's bad, he smokes like 3 packs a day. me? I smoked maybe a half a pack to at most a pack. But here I am, I got the laundry in, vacuuming the house with a bag of sweet tarts hanging off my belt while my future (maybe) fiance is out with his "pals" having a good ole time while I sit here and try not to smoke.

I told him I wasn't going to go out because I knew I would smoke if I did. So I don't care that he's out really. I just wish he'd tell me I could do it. I mean it's hard to quit smoking. I love him to pieces but a little support here please!!!

Elisabeth